Thank you, Mommy.

So another year came and went, and now Gavin, my sweet, bubby boy, is 2! I remember being younger, and it felt like it took an eternity to get from one Christmas to the next. It felt like next week, was a month away. I wish that time would feel like that again to me, but now it flies by and I sit and look at my children and wonder ... when? I know Logan is only 4 months old, but when Everlee (my best friend's daughter) was born, and I compared them, it really made me realize that Logan's isn't a newborn anymore. I can't believe how much difference there is between a newborn and a 4 month old. As much as I love to watch them all grow and learn, it breaks my heart to watch them do it.

A two year old can't say a whole lot, not to mention he's a tad behind from his hearing problems. He got his tubes at about 16 months old, and he passed his hearing test and we've had no more problems. I count on Gavin to show me what he wants and how he feels, but yes, sometimes he can tell me in a few words. So the day of his birthday (the 23rd) we were sitting on the couch, just him and me, when he leaned over, out of nowhere, and gave me a great big kiss and a huge, cheesy grin!! Gavin doesn't kiss on the the lips, or at all really. When you give him kisses he leans his head in to you and makes you kiss him, on the cheek. When I told Robert about it, he told me that it was Gavin's way of saying "Thank you for giving me life, Mommy". Of course that brought tears to my eyes. So, to my sweet Gavin, thank you and your brother and sister, for giving my life meaning.

Moving my 365 Challenge

to facebook. :) I'll update there later tonight. I've been chosen to blog for justmommies and just wanted to let you guys know. Certain posts will be chosen off of this blog to be posted on the JM blog area. So my next post will be pertaining to that. I just don't want to make it too confusing. :D

I was a teen mom....

but I don't promote it as a good thing. I don't complain or think bad of teen mothers, but I think these shows like "16 & Pregnant" and "Teen Mom" are encouraging it. Girls have gotten pregnant on purpose at a young age for a lesser reason than being on MTV! Don't think I'm bashing teen moms, I was one. It was hard, but I wouldn't change it for anything in this world. I just feel like its saying "hey, if you get pregnant at 16 we'll put you on TV!!" Not "all" teenagers are mature enough to think past that. I did get pregnant at 18, 2 months after I graduated high school!! I loved my husband (not married at the time), I had a supportive family, and before she came, I had a lot of love and help. I was lucky, a lot of teen moms don't even have that. I just can't bring myself to watch those shows and help in their ratings. I've watched ONE "16 & Pregnant" and it was a re-run of the girl who gave her baby up for adoption. There was so much talk, I had to see. I also watched the reunion, which brought on my gag reflex. Some of the things they were saying... I dunno.... I don't "motherhood compete" w/ people, and I never bash anyone's parenting styles, so don't think thats what I'm doing. I'm merely stating my opinions that these shows aren't "opening teenagers eyes and showing them how hard it is to be pregnant and have a baby", its enticing some of them... who wouldn't want to be on MTV at 15 or 16?!?!

Enough of my opinions. I've been holding that in for a while. haha. Anyways, todays picture. :) Not "new" , my camera's dead again, so just one I love. :)

Sweet Baby Girl

So I'll be sharing a picture of Everlee today. I got to be there as she made her grand entrance and I was in awe. Of course I stayed by my bf's head, but I still got to see her first breath and just all the emotions. It was amazing. After 16 hours of natural labor, 6 hours of it w/ pitocin, my best friend had a gorgeous baby girl!! Shes just so tiny!! I can't even fathom how little Logan use to be anymore and he's only 4 months old. The time flies, so ridiculously fast. It seems like she was just sitting in my room while I held a newborn baby. Logan is SO fun now, he laughs, giggles, talks, squeals, and I love his face when I go to pick him up or how he wiggles when we play. But theres just something about a sleeping, sweet smelling, itty bitty baby that you could just sit there and hold them forever. I miss him that little, sometimes I wish that time would slow down just a bit. I feel like tomorrow I'm gonna wake up and he'll be in college.

But, enough of that, introducing Miss Everlee Joann. Jan. 18, 2010 at 12:32 a.m. weighing in at 6lbs, 10oz and 19 inches long. :D

I totally love

how this 365 challenge is keeping me updated on my blog. hahaha. Yesterday I was gone all day, my best friend had her baby and I got to be there. It was amazing and she labored 6 hrs WITH pitocin and didn't even ask for drugs! I'm so proud of her!!! Miss Everlee is 6 lbs, 10 oz & 19 inches long. I can't wait to go back up there this evening when my hubby gets off so I can hold her!!!!

So its two pictures today as well!

The first one is photoshopped , I'm practicing my techniques. I made it black & white and just kept the hat & his eyes color, but it was ENTIRELY too much blue. So, here is the color version

and then Rileigh and Gavin pulled her mattress off her bed, propped it up and laid on it watching TV. It was so cute, I love when they get along!

2 Days Again!

I must have pulled up my blog a zillion times yesterday and I could never decide on my favorite picture! I've taken a bunch the past 2 days and I just love them all!! So I finally just picked. lol.

Day 15 - It was a GORGEOUS day outside in the south yesterday. Seriously felt like the 70's. People were in SHORTS. So I took Logan out while the older 2 were napping and let him enjoy the weather. When I laid him on his blanket he looked up at the crystal clear sky like it was just the most awesome thing hes ever seen. He's not wearing pants and he kicked off his blanket, but trust me, he DID NOT need them. Yesterday was the PERFECT weather, I can't wait for spring now!!! It really felt like it yesterday!

Day 16 - I love his space-y sleeper. He was in a fun mood today, I just had to post this picture of his funny face. hahahaha

He's a fast learner

So Logan rarely has a bottle, I mean RARELLYYY. I hate pumping. But I had a margarita tonight, and I know it takes a LOT of alcohol to be in your system for there to even be a trace amount in your breastmilk, but I just went ahead and gave him a bottle of expressed milk I had in the freezer. He was HOLDING his own bottle? I thought it was awesome as little as hes had one!!! Anyways, I snapped a pic, I think its uber cute, however, I bittersweet. Less of a baby day by day. :sigh:

Just a picture

Not much to blog about today. :) So I figured I'd just post my picture. Logan was eating his arm, I think this picture is hilarious!! He was seriously attacking it like something was gonna come out. hahah. OH!!! Right after this picture he rolled for the first time. Finally!!! The way he moves from side to side when he sleeps I knew he could roll over, he just never wanted to I guess. Eh, he'll do everything when he feels like it. I have no urge to rush it, its bittersweet. The more he can do, means the less hes a baby. Sigh...

Today flowed Nicely

The house stayed clean, laundry stayed done, dinner was yum, and now I'm sitting here waiting to see if my best friend's contractions are gonna pick up. Since I'm not gonna have anymore, I'm super excited to play with a newborn I can give back... even though sometimes I don't think I wanna. Its weird being done, and I'm not 100% positive I'll never have another. For now, 3 is MORE than enough and we have NO future plans for anymore. 3 was always my number, its totally weird that I reached it at such a young age. In a way I'm glad though. I have the patience to roll on the floor with them and be attacked, and the energy to stay up until 3 am doing my mommy chores and having me time, and get back up at 9 w/o being too tired to care for them. Its also nice to think that I'll be 40 when my children are all adults. Still young enough for me and my hubby to have fun together. Its hard to accept that I'm done, but its SO fun to anticipate other new arrivals for people who are close to me. :)

I also can't help but think about the benefits of being older. Waiting until we had a nice house, lots of "just us" time, and have people excited for us instead of looking at us like we're crazy for having one so young. But it worked, and I wouldn't trade any of them of anything in the world. They are my heart and I think everything worked just as it was always meant to. :)

Okay, so my picture for today is Rileigh Bug. I shot this w/ this crappy camera of mine, but I really do love it!! I can't wait to get my DSLR next month and see what I REALLY can do. I think I have potential. If I can take this adorable pic w/ a 7.2 mp crappy Sony point and shoot, I'm pretty sure I'll be even better w/ my Nikon DSLR. (or Canon, I haven't 100% decided yet).

His eyes KILL me!!

Every mommy has one or two features they dwell over when they're pregnant. Will he/she have a lot of hair, what color eyes, etc. Eye color is hard to determine for the first couple months, most babies have the pretty hazy blue newborn color. Well when I was pregnant with Rileigh, I wanted her to have her daddy's curls w/ my texture hair (silky, my hubby's is very course), well Rileigh got it. When I was preggo w/ Gavin, I wanted a big, brown eyed boy, well, he rocks the gorgeous puppy dog eyes. Well with Logan, I wanted him to have his daddy's gorgeous sky blue's since I already had my brown eyed baby. It looks like I'm getting my wish. There is still the chance they can turn green, Rileighs did at about 3 (her do still turn grey-blue though), but for now, I'm enjoying the stunning blue they are. I think they are even prettier than his daddy's, which is actually one of his features, besides his smile, that attracted me to him.

So here is a pic for Day 11, sweet Logan modeling his new hat with his stunning, bright blue eyes. :D

Mommyhood isn't all sparkles & sunshine

Sometimes it can make you feel like a complete failure. One wrong or too late decision can make a huge difference. I almost didn't take Logan to the ER last night. Why should I have? He had a bad cough and he was hoarse, but the hoarseness could have been from all the coughing. The coughing was just a viral infection, same one that caused his SECOND ear infection in the past month. You can't do anything about viral, except let it run its course. He was already on augmenten, the second strongest antibiotic. But I went, I risked exposing him to even sicker people, b/c he was just pitiful. His weak cry, hoarse cry broke my heart, and I finally gave in and went at about 10:30. We were only there for about 2 hours, we didn't wait long b/c a baby breathing hard at only 4 months old gets first priority, unless someone walks in missing a leg or something.

So the nurse hears wheezing, the DR. doesn't, but he orders an x-ray. Well, its pneumonia. Beginning stages, my paranoia caught it early and he didn't have to be admitted. What if I wouldn't have went, I almost didn't!! He didn't even have a fever!! Pneumonia can kill people, if I would have waited one more night.... how bad would it have been? He got a booster shot of antibiotics and a stronger prescription. His cough and breathing are better today and hes still a smiling, laughing, cooing, happy boy. It breaks my heart that he can feel so yucky but still wanna talk and smile at us. Mommy's little trooper, I know it has to hurt him to breathe. I guess I'm gonna have to quarantine my children. They never go anywhere, EVER, none of my kids are in daycare... I just don't understand how he can have this. We literally NEVER leave the house. If I have errands, I wait until their daddy gets home. So, in all my mommy protectiveness, I'm gonna start attacking everyone who walks in my door w/ Lysol. Don't think I'm kidding, when DH walks in the door from work today, I'll have the hand sanitizer and Lysol can waiting.

Sigh, well now that my self pity rant is OVER, I'm making up for missing yesterdays' picture today as well as posting today's picture. Yesterday was kinda hectic so I never got around to getting on here. So day 9 and 10 will be... drum roll please.... the first picture is Rileigh & Logan, and the second picture is just Logan being cute, my sweet, blue-eyes baby boy.

Day 9

Day 10

Beanie Time!!

So, Natasha, the siggy legend, has numerous other talents. Such as her well known siggies, photography, and crocheting! Yes, I received Logan's GORGEOUS beanie today and was able to squeeze one lone pic out of my camera. Yes its still dead, and thats a negative on finding the charger. He looks toooo cute in it and I'm totally adoring it right now!!!!!!! So picture for day 8, is Logan modeling his beanie. Totally ignore the scared look on his face, I'm sure he'll walk early just to escape the range of my camera. ;)

Mr. Almost Birthday Boy...

was NOT being cooperative today!! I need cute pictures to do his invitations, would he look at me, no; would he smile, thats a BIG negative. So, he's up from his nap now and I'm about to try and tackle the task again. Oh wait, I CAN'T! I can't find my camera's battery charger. Sometimes I feel like with each child more of my brain cells died. Ahh, but when I think about it, I'd give a lot more up to be able to keep them. SO, on day 7, I'm sharing one of the only decent pictures Gavin would let me get, its the very first one.



Also, Logan is 4 months old today, if the time doesn't slow down, I may have to track down father time and have a nice talking to with him. ;)



and as promised, Mr. Almost Birthday Boy, Gavin Thomas.

Gonna be buusyyyy

I wanted to post this now, before I got consumed in my present and posted late again or not at all!! So heres the way it worked, my co-host on JM, Susan, doesnt (didn't) read a whole lot, but Dear John is a great book, so I secretly ordered it and had it shipped to her. I had her address from the secret santa thing in our playroom. So, she read it, loved it, and bought "The Lucky One" from the same author! I haven't read it yet, so she returned the favor. So, picture for Day 6 is what I'll be doing the rest of the day!! Thanks again, SOOO much if you're reading this Susan!! :D :D :D

Cloth ba-hoottiiieeee

This is a little late again, but I have a GOOD reason!! Today I got done, cleaning the whole house, washing and folding and hanging up all the laundry, and I was WAYYY too far behind, so just the folding and what not took almost 2 hours!! Of course I was a little distracted by the movie I was watching. I also cleaned out the summer and too small clothes from the boy's dressers (I did Rileighs right before I had Logan), I finally tackled Rileighs messy room w/ her assistance, and I had to feed, bathe, and dress the kids for bed. My poor dh was on call tonight and as SOON as he opened the door to walk in from work, his nextel went off. He JUST got home, literally, and its 3am. :o



But, back to the title of my blog.... Yep, no more sposies!! He looks wayyyy too cute in them, they are soo comfy and I adore them. I guess I'll know for sure if the washing and all that will make them worth it. He's also uber long!! He's gonna be a tall man. Robert's dad was like, 6'2 or something like that. I definitely think Logan is gonna be taller than his daddy. lol



Here is my picture for Day 5.

I'm 15 mins late

so this post still counts for the 4th dern it!! I had a busy day. lol.

My daughters fish died and she seen it and told me he was sleeping. Hopefully if I keep her busy enough tomorrow daddy can sneak a new one in before she realizes hes been sleeping too long. Two years for a fish, thats a good life right?!?

SO, Logan is sick, my poor sweet baby, and he was all cuddled up on my best friend Jessica. Of course shes 37 weeks pregnant and Everlee (her little girl-to-be) thought kicking Logan while he slept was just the bee knees. ;)

Day Tres

of my 365 day challenge. What do I want to post a picture of? My hubby in long johns making pasta, thats a negative. Me w/ no make-up on or my sleeping (not really sleeping yet, just laid them down for a nap) older children? Another negative. So I'm gonna grab my camera and snap Logan. Hes sick and doesn't feel very well, but it doesn't diminish his cuteness. :D

Wow, something for me?!?

So I went and got my hair done! Yes, something for ME! I was so ecstatic and it turned out fabulous!! I have highlights and I had my bangs cut back w/ more layers. My hair is still super long, but its SO different, I was totally after a drastic change! Rileigh looked at me when I walked through the door, it took her a second of staring before she ran up and grab my leg, "Mommy, why does your hair look like that?" and I replied, "Do you like it honey?" with a big grin on her face, she says "hahah, yea!!"

So with the approval of an almost 4 year old, I think I'll keep it. :D So, my picture for day 2 is to share my finished hair, its a dark photo, but you get the idea. Its funny b/c I was almost positive all my pictures would be of my kids, however, today is me. :D

Happy 2010!!!

Well, another year has come and gone!! Its amazing how fast having children make the time fly by. Soo, I've decided to do that 365 Challenge! Everyday for the next 365 days I'll post a different picture and probably share a little story about it. Now, life is hectic, and I'm sad to admit that I may miss some or even forget about this. I'd like to write more in my blog, all these thoughts in my head gotta go somewhere, and this will definitely help.

So starting today, I took this picture today of my sweet Logan Man. :) He's growing like a weed and just the sweetest little boy!! He'll be 4 MONTHS OLD on the 7th, if only I could slow the time down. He looks SO much like his daddy to me and he feels my heart w/ joy. Three kids and not an ounce less love for any of them, just more and more everyday.

Here is my sleeping sweetheart, I just love how he curls up when he sleeps. He does it when he nurses too :D