I think I can...

I think I can, I think I can. I have the world's worst motivation, seriously. I want to lose weight and tone up, but I usually only make it half the day. I love coca cola way too much, and I know thats definitely one of my downfalls. Along with the chocolate, potatoes and starches I love, McDonald's... Okay, I know, I know, just a state of mind. But when you're able to eat whatever you want, whenever you want and never gain an ounce, well, you have a hard time adjusting to the difficulty of watching what you eat! That was before I had kids and I balanced at 125-130 pounds. Now, I'm between 150-155, and I'm not happy with that. I'm short and all the weight just seems to be filling up my love handles.

So, I started today, and I'm going to do this! I have to keep repeating this to myself, over and over and over. I had Special K cereal for breakfast, I haven't had a soda and I did 100 crunches and 50 push ups this morning. Its hard to get out of the house for cardio, so I intend to dance in the mornings with the kids like a mad women. I want to lose at least 25 lbs, and I really hope I can do this. I'm going to start going to the tanning bed, to help clear up my psoriasis the rest of the way. I may do this at night when my hubby gets home. I had gestational diabetes with Gavin, and it was diet controlled. That diet was magnificent, and I dropped 6 lbs the first week just from cutting out cokes and sweets, and I was pregnant! The dr. was okay with it because I was eating healthy and thats usually what happens when you go on that diet. I want to do it again, but I don't feel the motherly instinct need to. Logan's out of my belly, why should I restrict my eating like that? Well, dern it, FOR ME!!

So, be prepared to follow me on my weight loss journey! I may have crabby days when I think of a Krystal's chocolate Milkquake, but I need all the support I can get. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can....